Who Shall I Send?

"Also I heard the Voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send, and who will go for us?..." (Isaiah 6:8 KJV)

It was a while back when I was a teenager, I remember talking to God. "God, you know that I'm not real smart," I said.

"I know," He said. That's how we talk, you just have to understand that's how God works with me, fairly blunt and honest.

"Seeing as how I'm not real smart, when you want me to do something or want to lead me in a certain direction, I think you might need to just smack me in the face with it and point." I said quite matter of factly.

"You know, son," He said to me, "you got a good idea there. But you have to do something for me."

"What is it, God?" I asked, "just name it."

"When I smack you in the face with what I want you to do," He said as he put his arm around me, "Do it."

Now I know many of you reading this might think that I'm exagerating a little, or maybe being a little rediculous, but that is how I talk to to God and that is the agreement that I made with Him. So far He has fullfilled His end of the deal. He told me he wanted me in the Army. That's where I am. He took me to Ft. Bragg, NC, and said go to Layton Chapel Baptist Church. So I did. While there he said I want you and your wife to become missionaries. So we are. Then he told us he was sending us to Ft. Campbell, KY. So here we are. He told us help the Brockman's over at the Eagle's Nest. So we do. He told us leave the church you are at now and go somewhere I tell you to go. So we left. And we're still waiting to find the church.

Now here is where we start getting confusing. The only Independent Fundamental Baptist Churches in the Ft. Campbell Area are the most legalistic churches I've ever seen. What is left? Liberalism that you wouldn't believe. Either the churches here are so far right that they've missed the point or they're so far left that they wouldn't know the point if it bit them in the rear. The bottom line is that this area needs a Good Independent Fundamental Baptist Church, that much God has shown me. But what is it that we want's me to do alone? I haven't felt God's call to Preach. Is this his way of telling me he's calling? Don't get me wrong I'm not running, but I don't want to just assume. After all that is why I asked God to smack me in the face with it.

I'm so confused with what he wants me to do. It's almost frightening.


Valkyrie